TWENTY-NINE

Goodness gracious, I have not messed around with Tumblr png's in YEARS...)

Oh yeah, we're here. It's all leading up to the big 3-0, and it's all kinda funny because as much as I am trying to be positive on most days, it is still quite terrifying to come to terms with the fact that I have been alive for almost three decades. I can't begin to comprehend that and idk how long it will be until I come to terms with it. Here we are- my 29th birthday, and there are a billion things to write about without any order, but let me get straight to the point.

Whoever said life gets better in your 30s, well, here's to hoping you're right. While my 20s (or life in general) could have been a lot worse, I am a very blessed person who gets to live out her dreams (well, 80% of them so far) living in one of the best places on the planet. If you know me, I complain-  A LOT. Unintentionally, of course, or get stressed AF when something even in the slightest gets out of my control. This leads naturally to my career- what can I say? I have also been very lucky to have the experiences I do, traveling while having to meet the coolest people ever while getting to do something I'm passionate about. I am reaching the point of no return, though, and (surprise!) I have begun looking elsewhere and even trying to figure out how to quit (overall) working for someone else and stressing out over their dreams coming true while I feel like my own time is running out. I need to get out and ASAP and become my own CEO. Crossing my fingers this happens before the next 365 day limit hits.

Speaking of hitting 30- I think it's about time I begin setting some more serious goals and make up my mind as to when I plan to have kids. But what I have already realized is that I have been in the mindset that I don't feel or look the age I am so that is why I keep putting that off so now it's more of an "I have to" because ya know, it gets harder for women after 30something. FML. This is all extremely scary. I seriously feel sometimes I have done nothing with my life, yet have done so much in comparison to people my age.

As of right now, I am probably pre-ordering the Iphone X and thinking these exact thoughts over and over in my head because legit, this is all that goes through my mind like....ALL THE TIME nowadays, and life is passing me by. I graduated high school almost 12 years ago...f*ck f*ck f*ck!

Okay, I need to go before I begin hyperventilating.

Cheers, bitches. xx

WEARING:
TOP | Sincerely Not 
JEANS | Forever 21

OVERCAST IN THE EAST VILLAGE

 

 

 

 

 

 

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So here we are, Monday, October 23rd, and 4 days to go until my birthday...I feel like Joey from "Friends" when he turns 30 and says something along the lines of, "we had a deal that everyone would get old except for me!" while yelling to the ceiling basically, and while I may not exactly be turning 30, I am officially being official super and ridiculously old that's it's actually quite scary :(

No big plans, except for Disneyland on Sunday with my cousins, and I get off early on Friday because on your birthday you get to leave after 3 hours and still get paid as if you worked the entire day (huuuuuge score!), so the fact that I get to drink bubbly after 11am is totally acceptable and perfect for me. Aside from that, any Halloween plans? I have not dressed up since 2015 when I had to do it for my previous job lol...those were the good ol' days. 

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TEN TEN TWENTY-SEVENTEEN

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Oh you know, just back here trying to figure out why it is not really, entirely FALL YET! Ughh come on SoCal! On another note, I wanted to touch base with you and let you know just how badly I fell in love with my new (now getting kinda old) baker boy hat (if you follow me on IG stories you already know my obsession!). It's like the one thing I never knew I needed (heck, I am wearing it right now as we speak!). Not only does it go great with practically every bad hair day I have (which is often BTW), but I find that it adds a chic touch to almost any outfit I have on. Add a bold lipstick, sunnies, and you're good to go! What do you think of this trend?

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FALL IN SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA

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Yup, this is Fall here in SoCal, where sometimes it is hard to balance an outfit because the weather is so bipolar. The way I usually do it is like this, a skirt with a coat and some chic ankle boots, complete with details such as a cool choker and my all-time favorite mini Kate Spade purse. 

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